TEST ME AND TRY ME LORD
At a young age of 18 Bethany Cooper wrote in her journal the following: “There’s definitely room in life for pain. It’s what changes us and toughens us up and keeps us connected to reality. I don’t like pain or want pain and I am not going to start asking God for more of it. But darn it, I think I need some more pain in my life…God is prompting me to make myself available and ready for both good and bad things.”
Little did she know that in 5 short years she would be diagnosed with a brain tumor and endure unthinkable misery for over a year and eventually be called home by her Heavenly Father at age 24. Her journey entry eerily echoes the words of David found in Psalm 26:2-3.
Test me, Lord, and try me,
examine my heart and my mind;
3 for I have always been mindful of your unfailing love
and have lived in reliance on your faithfulness.
In her book Bethany’s Calendar, Elaine Marie Cooper writes the following: “Jesus, this is TOO HARD!” I yelled at Him from my Subaru. There was no audible reply. Just an inner voice I heard in my soul….”My grace is sufficient for you.” The words startled me out of my sobs. I took a tissue and dried my eyes. It was a life-changing moment. And while I continue to mourn over the loss of Bethany, I have never yelled at God since that day.
This is a story of fear and faith, commitment and compassion, told with gut-wrenching honesty while sharing unwavering faith in God.
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And as always, expect to be blessed!